This Is A Call

“Every calling is great when greatly pursued.” ~Oliver Wendell Holmes

It’s me. The one who keeps talking to you about that thing. That project. That possibility.

I know you think you couldn’t be the one for the job, but honestly, if you weren’t the one for the job, I wouldn’t have come to you with it.

I wouldn’t have come knocking at the door of your mind. I wouldn’t have come into your dreams, into your imagination, into your heart.

I wouldn’t have made it so compelling to think about me.

I wouldn’t have planted in you the frustration with what is.

I wouldn’t have planted in you the vision of what could be.

You say you want more meaning, more adventure, and to have a greater impact.

I’m offering you all of that, but you keep telling me I’m silly, unrealistic, too big, when here I am, ready to give you the greatest adventure of your life.

I don’t take it personally, but I do weep about it.

I weep for the joy you are missing out on. I weep because you aren’t getting to witness your immense strength and brilliance. I weep for what the world is missing out on too.

When I took this job, they told me much of it would be waiting. Waiting on you.

I want to make sure you know, I’m here, close as breath, waiting. I’m waiting for you to say yes.

We can do this. Together, we can do this thing.

It’s true, part of my job is creating challenges and dark moments along the way—but only enough of them to teach you the most beautiful lessons you’ll ever learn.

I need you. Your hands. Your heart. Your mind. Your circumstances. Your strengths. Your weaknesses. Your wounds. Your wit. Your tale.

I need you, just as you are.

Say yes?

Love,

Your Calling

This gem came to me exactly when I needed it.  More than halfway through NaNo and less than halfway to 50K words and I was filled with the fear that I wouldn't get it done.  That I didn't have it in me.  

And then this came, by way of an email from an amazing friend who always sends the most inspirational emails (even when she doesn't know how desperately I need the inspiration... the perspective...the reminders of what it's all about).  And it was the virtual and literal kick in the ass I needed to get my ass in gear.

And I'm so So SO happy to brag about the fact that I officially finished 2012's National Novel Writing Month n time and just barely over word count (but still OVER!) - 30 days - 51,531 words!!!!  I'm proud of me and not ashamed to say it!

I'm not just a NaNo Participant.  I'm an official WINNER!!!!!!!!

And I now have a panster mystery with what I think is some strong potential. (For now I'll be referring to it by the title's acronym FWOFB....stick around if you want to find out what it's really called! How's that for a teaser???) 

And I'm really excited about it.  And while I did take the weekend to decompress and sleep and relax and be brain dead, I'll back back with every hope and every intention of answering the call and getting me over the finish line also known as "The End".